Undeserved Truth--SPN coda 6.05
Oct. 26th, 2010 07:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
borgmama1of5
Title: Undeserved Truth
Author: borgmama1of5
Coda to 6.05
Wordcount: 300
Pairing: Dean/Lisa
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: If they were mine, season 6 would be very different
“I don’t deserve you.”
Dean was a wreck. Four days he’d been camped in Lisa’s house, nearly all of that time drunk, unable to talk, unable to tell her what was wrong with him.
And she still hadn’t kicked him out.
Instead she had sat beside him and pulled his head against her shoulder, and rubbing his back, murmured, “Shh, shh, you’re safe here.”
***
“I don’t deserve you,” Dean murmured into Lisa’s neck as he nuzzled that delicate spot under her ear.
“Mmmm.” Lisa pressed tighter against him and shortly Dean wasn’t thinking about anything other than the feeling of being with her.
***
“I don’t deserve you,” Dean laughed as Lisa handed him the paper plate loaded with one of Sid’s masterpiece hamburgers and potato salad and an ear of butter-loaded corn.
She flashed him an impish smile. “I’ll think of something … maybe you’ll have to cook all next week.”
Dave from across the street shook his head. “Lisa is one helluva chick. Wish I had your charm…”
Swallowing the perfectly cooked bite of burger, Dean replied, “My charm had nothing to do with it.”
***
“I don’t deserve you.”
Brilliant green eyes met chocolate brown ones and Dean knew that Lisa understood the unspoken ‘but I’m glad you’ve ignored that’ end to his words. For the first time in … well, maybe ever, Dean was being given the chance to not have to choose between what his heart wanted and what his mind demanded.
“I’ll call every day … and,” he said it before she could, “I’ll be careful.”
***
“You don’t deserve me,” Dean muttered as he snapped his cellphone shut, not leaving a message. “You deserve so much more than the shit that comes with me.”
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Date: 2010-10-27 12:48 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:56 am (UTC)Wants to fix this so much!
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Date: 2010-10-27 01:36 am (UTC)I wanted so badly that Dean would have his own family. :(
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:07 am (UTC)love the world you made for them.
I nominate you to be show runner.
Go Fix Now please
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:58 am (UTC)Thank you for telling me how much you liked this!
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:46 am (UTC)Great job capturing Dean's bitter despair/self-esteem issues. So sad!
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:59 am (UTC)Thanks for reading!
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Date: 2010-10-27 04:07 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-27 02:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-27 07:48 am (UTC)He doesn't have HIS "Sammy" and no Lisa & Ben. Poor Dean.....
You see....your words hit every button. It's sad, but i loved it :) Thx
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:18 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-27 08:21 am (UTC)I wish show had the budget and time an - well - INTEREST to give Lisa more backstory. I wanna know what she's doing now (I SO hope she was just talking to Mr. Singer, demanding answers, but I don't trust the writers that much). I want her to STAY in Dean's life, and I'm deeply worried about her. Because females with character don't last long in the life of Winchester :-(
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:20 pm (UTC)But I want her to be better, to not give up on Dean.
Wish we could be assured of a happy ending, but not from this show...
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Date: 2010-10-27 12:17 pm (UTC)Love,
Robin
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:22 pm (UTC)But he did resist and he really needs her as a touchpoint right now!
Anticipating more heartbreak...
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:02 pm (UTC)Swallowing the perfectly cooked bite of burger, Dean replied, “My charm had nothing to do with it.”
♥ ♥ ♥
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-27 02:06 pm (UTC)But wonderful little coda =)
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Date: 2010-10-27 02:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-10-27 02:37 pm (UTC)Thanks for this lovely progression of vignettes.... you've hit perfectly on the way their understanding works.
To me, Dean getting voicemail doesn't mean it's all over... I was really confused when people read it that way... but I'm sure Lisa needs some processing time to deal with such a traumatic visit. Too bad that it's certain that Dean will stew in self-blame the whole time before she finally calls. :(
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Date: 2010-11-01 04:04 pm (UTC)I like Lisa now LOL
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Date: 2010-11-01 07:05 pm (UTC)Thanks for letting me know you enjoyed this!
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Date: 2010-11-04 05:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-11-04 06:21 pm (UTC)I am hoping (probably in vain) that the writers let the two of them work out a compromise after the situation with Sam gets under control.
But yeah, not really expecting to get it.
Thanks for reading!
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